Queasy

So the last ultrasound didn't show anything and I have another this Friday. I think it will show things, and with the amount of queasiness I have now I am starting to be more confident that things are going ok this time. I was a little worried the end of last week when I had some spotting again, but it was only a little and not nearly as much as last time. It also stopped and now I am having the lovely feeling of wanting to puke but not actually doing it.

I swear that this time I am popping really early. I don't think it is really noticeable since I have a bit of a tummy anyway but I notice. I just need to get some Belly ups, or whatever they are called to keep my pants up. :) Or maybe some of these bottoms up if I can find a Canadian retailer. I need something to keep the pants up and I think I am going to need some bigger bras again soon.

Ok, if I am repeating myself at all it is just the pregnancy brain. Too tired to type anymore.

Be Careful What You Wish For

So I have said that I wanted an early ultrasound and I do. What I don't want is one tomorrow when I am pretty sure that my doctor wanted me to have one in a few weeks. You know so that I can hear the heartbeat and that there is actually something to see on the ultrasound. Instead because my doctor was off delivering a baby, or babies today, I am stuck going to the appointment tomorrow and then worrying that I will need to go again in a week or so because they can't find anything. Oh well, what can it hurt right? At least there hasn't been any more spotting.

Worry

I really hope I am not going to have another early miscarriage. I am having a little spotting and that is how it started last time. I am trying not to feel stress and just wait to see the doctor this afternoon. Sigh. It is really hard. I was so hopeful yesterday and now I am just worried.


Edited to add:

I am still spotting a little, but I took another test and yes I am still pregnant. Last time still has me freaked out a bit.

Not Telling the World

Here is the picture I really wanted to post last week.



Since the last pregnancy ended early we are not telling anyone yet. I think things are going much better with this one though. I haven't had any spotting at all. I am feeling some nausea especially in the evening. I have been very tired as well.


I also wanted to post this picture. Aidan was so cute with his cousin. He was so gentle, except when Juliana's legs were on his lap. He liked to give her air hugs and kiss her head, but the legs on him were too much. He will be a really good big brother.



I am going to see the Dr. tomorrow and I am hoping to get an early ultrasound. I think she will let me go. Aidan had a couple of due dates because the early ultrasound said he would be earlier than the conventional method put him. He then came a week earlier than the earlier date so I want to have a better idea of a due date. I will also feel better about this pregnancy when I see more proof that it is happening. I am trying not to worry, but I really want this to happen. It is hard not to be excited and a bit anxious. I also can't wait to see the lima bean picture and hear the heartbeat. I am not looking forward to the really full bladder though.